it's been pretty melancholic lately. i've just returned back home from a round of pretty intense and exciting work, and the general vibe of early winter - sort of cold and pretty unlively - definitely have put me into this sort of burnout. not really catastrophic - though definetly noticable. everything became a bit harder to do, and something as seemingly simple as doing laundry feels much more intimidating than it used to.
this track, honestly, reflects that shockingly well. it's pretty rare that i'm able to find such a direct correlation between my condition and my music - yet in the noisy, heavily distorted lo-fiish tone and the general i for the first time in a while see a direct emotional reflection.
the track has started as a random attempt to sample vocals from a vocaloid track after hearing it in osu, and grew naturally from there - almost too naturally, to the point that i would say it's my most frictionless track in a very long while. i'm starting to see a line between this track and two others - "emergency" and "celebration". i feel like they start to thread into a singular narrative, so i'm starting to wonder if i can maybe tie them together with another track or two and release as an ep.
the track is out on bandcamp.
